Memorial platform

Until It Was My Child

The Dragonfly Infinity Memorial — where every name lives forever.

Until it was my child — a memorial wall and tracker for fentanyl and new drug deaths in the world. Remember. Honor. Never forget.
Until it was my child app logo — dragonflies circling the words in teal and violet

Until It Was My Child App

A GOOSE Foundation Initiative

The Dragonfly Infinity Memorial

Where Every Name Lives Forever.

Until It Was My Child is a worldwide memorial dedicated to preserving the memories of those we have lost while bringing hope, education, awareness, and connection to the families left behind.

Every memorial honors a life that mattered.

Every story helps educate another family.

Every name contributes to a greater understanding of the impact addiction, suicide, and synthetic drugs and other tragedies have on individuals, families, and communities around the world.

Why We Created It

No parent should ever fear that their child's name will someday be forgotten.

When someone dies, their story should not end.

Until It Was My Child ensures every loved one continues to be remembered—not only for how they died, but for how they lived, who they loved, the lives they touched, and the memories they leave behind.

By sharing stories, photographs, milestones, and cherished memories, families create a lasting legacy that can inspire hope, foster understanding, and remind future generations that every life mattered.

Features

Until It Was My Child allows families to:

  • Create a permanent memorial
  • Share photographs and life stories
  • Preserve memories for future generations
  • Receive messages of remembrance and support
  • Connect with educational resources
  • Learn about addiction, mental health, suicide prevention, and recovery
  • Explore awareness campaigns

Contribute anonymous information that helps researchers and communities better understand the impact of addiction, suicide, fentanyl, and other synthetic drugs.

Inside Until It Was My Child

Home

The Until It Was My Child home page introduces visitors to the memorial, provides access to the app’s main sections, and displays Scale of Our Loss—the number of memorial names entered to date.

Find My Dragonfly

Search for memorials, remember loved ones, and preserve stories for future generations.

The Numbers

The Numbers provides a unique community-based view of the lives remembered through Until It Was My Child.

Because each memorial is created by family members or loved ones, the information reflects the stories and experiences that families choose to share. To improve the quality and reliability of the information, families may identify the source of the reported cause of death during the memorial creation process. This information is used only to support anonymous, aggregated statistics and is not displayed on individual memorials.

Users can explore anonymous community data by:

  • Country
  • State or Province
  • City
  • Time period
  • Cause of death
  • Scale of Our Loss (number of memorials entered)
  • Whether criminal prosecution occurred in cases involving illegally supplied drugs, when known

Families may indicate whether the reported cause of death is confirmed or suspected. This information is used only to improve the accuracy of anonymous community statistics and is not displayed on individual memorials.

As the Until It Was My Child community grows, these anonymous, aggregated statistics may help families, educators, researchers, prevention organizations, healthcare professionals, and communities better understand trends, identify areas of need, support education, and strengthen prevention efforts.

The Numbers is intended as an educational and awareness resource based on memorials voluntarily shared within the Until It Was My Child community. It is designed to complement—not replace—official public health and government data by providing insights from the families and loved ones who choose to preserve their stories.

Family Corner

Family Corner is a place where family members and loved ones can share who their person was beyond the circumstances of their death.

Families can tell their loved one's story, share cherished memories, post photographs, celebrate milestones, and write personal messages to someone they miss.

It is a place to laugh, cry, remember, and ensure that future generations know the person behind the name.

Because every life is far greater than the way it ended.

One Mama's Story

Read the personal journey of a mother whose loss inspired the creation of the GOOSE Foundation and Until It Was My Child, and whose hope is to help other families through education, remembrance, and compassion. .

Grief & Advocacy

Discover advocacy efforts, educational initiatives, remembrance campaigns, and ways to help reduce stigma, support recovery, and strengthen communities.

Recovery Help

Connect with recovery resources, treatment information, crisis support, and organizations dedicated to helping individuals and families.

Until It Was My Child is more than a place to remember those we have lost.

It is a place where education, awareness, remembrance, hope, and healing come together.

Every story shared has the power to help another family feel understood and less alone.

Every life remembered helps reduce stigma.

Every conversation started has the potential to save another life.

Our Promise

We promise to honor every life, preserve every name, and create a place where love, memory, and legacy continue for generations to come.

We will continue building a memorial where every person is remembered with dignity, every family is welcomed with compassion, and every story has the opportunity to inspire hope.

Together, we will ensure that no life is forgotten and no family grieves alone.